Morning Discovery

After having dreams for the past several nights about being pregnant, and I mean really, REALLY convincing dreams that left a lingering feeling after I woke up - I finally broke down an took a HPT... A faint but obvious positive line showed up after a few moments. I just knew it! I am going to check again tomorrow morning to see if it's gotten any darker.

A positive test on the four month anniversary of burying our daughter..... I've felt very emotional today. I am happy about the prospect of another baby, but more of a subdued happy than in my past pregnancies. I just don't feel it's real yet. I hope I will be able to relax and enjoy this pregnancy and get over all the "what if's."

I hope with every ounce of my being that this works out.

We went to visit out beautiful girl tonight at her resting spot. I took her wreath to her which I had redone. The flowers on it had died months ago and it looked depressing and abandoned.

Please keep your fingers crossed for me that I can handle whatever happens in the coming months with strength.